I've gone to a better place,
come with me?

didn't blog for 3 days. and i've been sleeping at 12am+ these few days. homework. homework& still homework. and yesterday i couldn't stand it anymore. i was doing my math homework when i actually fell asleep on the floor. too tired. and yesterday i didn't bring my english summary ws. i was like ahhhh. how could this happen to me!! well. today i told deeeweee my reason. i said i heard her saying that only those who went to support badminton need to hand in to her and guess what? she said "actually you're right." what what. anyway we're supposed to run 5 rounds for PE today but i only ran 4 and tried to blend in with those who really finished 5 rounds. mwahaha. over lazy. bleh.

slack. EOIs are here and i'm slacking. i set out to revise at 2. [ that's when i woke up ] and it's 6:30 now. i have yet to start. just doing homework. damn. i have this premonition i'm going to fail something.

ouch. my braces bracket came off, and now it's poking my mouth. ): bleh. 3 more days to eoi week. well, wish me luck cuz i think i'll do badly. today we had a formative chemistry test. and i got 2 over 6 [ or SEVEN !? ]. and the separation methods ws, i got 3 over 10. oh damn. i failed. whatever.anyways, i changed my blog layout. what's after pink? PURPLE ! the international gay colour (: nevermind, i'm currently in love with purple. i'm not gay ! *innocent* eww. not as if i AM a gay. oh well... didn't have lunch, fed on some tidbits. ruffles and pocky and milky bar. *unhealthy unhealthy* oh yah, eating disorder causes brains to shrink. guess i have to stuff myself with food to increase my brain capacity.

whatever. my fault. shout all you want.
h.chinese, chem, math, geog. all on week 7.
and i don't have geog notes, not even 1 page. damn. doing all the notes now.
but i like geography still :)
i feel tired. i need a break.
i don't want to snap.
when will june holidays come?

utterly disgusted by today's trip to yingxuan's place to do lit pt. in fact. fweaking disgusted. decided not to talk about it. and im playing the role of a monk in the skit. thai-chit land-chat thailand chit chat. yah yah. i don't even need to speak. i have about 5 lines in the whole play. and most of them are omitrava. may there be peace and harmony. buddha asks us to forgive and forget. blah blah whatever.

i don't know what happened to wanen. she's very sad in tkgs. she even went to look for a counsellor. and she calls me every time she's sad. and i feel very guilty cuz i don't participate actively in the conversation. i always didn't. she called me on wednesday crying. she said she had no friends. well. in khs. my friend was her and her friend was me. i don't know what happened to wanen. she was once a very cheerful girl who doesn't care much about the world coming to an end. but now. i can't believe she has no friends. she socializes alot and makes friends easily. what is happening to her. i'm worrying for her. we have not met since CNY eve. we're going to do cip hours together in library during the june holidays. i can't even help her. we're in different schools. damn. am i a friend?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MS ANG !! can't visit ms ang on thursday cuz we were dismissed at 3 and i had to review on my history pt. today she's not free. on her birthday !! compared to mrs lim. ms ang is definitely better. mrs lim only stuffed us with work. everyday she has a list of work prepared for us. and i remember we spent more than 100 bucks buying assessments she recommended. too much for us to take. not that im trying to boast. my p6 marks were better than my p5's. ms ang gived suitable amount of work altho she talked alot in class. and i enjoyed her lesson altho i always yawned at the back of the class. and i shall not keep this. i was very happy when mrs lim was off for maternity leave. altho ms alice lee was horrible too. mrs lim treated 5/1 as geniuses. but she probably didn't know that i wasn't a genius. and every time comparing us with last batch of 6/1. yah yah. we're stupid. whatever. that's the reason i didn't bother to look for mrs lim during CNY. ms ang's also very sweet. she has stuff for us every occasion. children's day. graduation day. after exams. before PSLE. i still kept the gummy lollipop she gave to us on children's day in the freezer. and it's been there for almost half a year now. i still keep the bookmark she made for every one of us. ms ang should be 29 by now. hope she finds a boyfriend ! lOl. she probably teaches until she don't socialize outside. well. best of luck to ms marlene ang.
THANKOO MS ANG !!

did my history pt in silence for 4 whole hours without music. without real life conversation but only msn dootdoot here and there. have to do review my philo. do history pt and discuss lit pt at the same time. it's like so packed up. and i'm only done with the history brochure. i spent my time printing and positioning papers. my cousin has created a blog. not about his life but JESUS. so into it eh? lifelongfaithinjesuschrist
and tmr's summative compo. and i got only 18/30 for formative. oh-whatever! and we can't support the debate finals anymore. double trouble google trouble

"cos your salvation matters..."
-jeriel yeo

what the hell. humans are selfish. in order to be the top. humans step on one another. why is this so. why are these humans so scared of losing out. even causing them not wanting to share anything. why is that being the top and the first is so important. why are humans like that. they expect others to help them while they make use of them. why is it so that these kind of humans exist. humans are selfish.

i was so damn tired yesterday. i slept from 6PM to 10AM this morning. and that's more than half a day. still not enough to replace the hours of sleep i lost since that malay teacher came. and this morning tried to do philo. so fucked up. (i decided not to replace fuck with fart or duck or whatever.) i can't type anything. i sat in front of the computer for 3 hours only for 2 paragraphs. i can't stand it. i played A3 instead. then back to homework. fucking homework. performance tasks suck. &i mean it. SUCK! journals suck too. i wrote so much. that malay teacher said that she would comment. wtf she only signed her name and put the date. and i stupidly thought that her signature was a star. i don't even feel like sharing my journal with her.

note: decided to take away that tagboard. i don't want anybody to tag anymore. nobody tags anyway. this is my blog. i don't want anybody to give comments. my life. my say.

TOO MUCH HOMEWORK. im so farted up. damn. history pt is horrible. i dont feel like conserving any place or have any objections to how a place is conserved!! &i dont care about RGS girls dating neighbourhood school boys. PHILO!! yesterday i slept at a pathetic time of 1:30AM. well. im still energetic at school. if this goes on. dont call me emelia lim. call me panda lim.

richard is BOOM dynamite! it's like since our batch of sec ones came. richard is somehow lousier than before. lOl. i thot either hadley or richard's going to win the banner competition. HOWEVER. waddle won. mass dance was a little coo-coo. we're supposed to form 2 rays. [ ya. BLUE rays ] madeline and i like dunno-what. run like siao siao. din even bother to squat at the count of 6? or 7? oh nvm. horrible. and when i got home my face is red. think i've got sunburn. blehh. sports fest isnt THAT FUN.

havent been blogging. cuz of the mt. everest homework. then i need to read that huckleberry finn. which i read a few years back but different writer. ewww. im just so sad. damn. tmr there's science formative test and maths pop quiz. ive yet to finish my hmwk and it's almost 10:30pm+ doubt ill get to sleep today. i was going to do bk review today but my rubrics are in school or sth. damn. shit.

damn. need to hand in bk review on friday. i haven't read a book anyways. im reading like coo-coo now. and i suck at aesthetics. stitching here and there and the cloth looks like poopoo. urghh. got a new seat beside vimilyn and jananii beside vimilyn. at least i've got madeline behind me and jasselyn in front of me. this arrangement is QUiTE OKAY so far. so that's it. need to stitch that sick belt.

ya right. happy april fool's day.
but happy birthday to thashi.
thot that i could go home early today but who knows. have to stay back for jane eyre. watched the movie over again. till 4pm. i was damn freaking tired. slept like a piggy in the car. yesterday i skipped dinner. today i skipped lunch. tomorrow i shall skip breakfast. and i skip recess everyday. :))
she said yesterday that she was going to do a spot check today. when i reached school today. eveyone suddenly became so neat. i refuse to mention that asstic malay teacher's name cuz it probably would give me bad memories. and what the fart she said my hair not okay. must i put that cloth over my head to cover my hair like she does? what a pain in the ass. she sucks. whatever. and she's changing our seats. i HATE CHANGING SEATS. what century are we in now. students have their rights. WE choose our own seats. but as she said. she's turningto be 50. i believe that. she's old. and who knows? when she take off that cloth over her head. can you guarantee that it would be black hair?